‘I got married to Christ’– Jessica says
Jessica Hayes bought herself a wedding gown, a veil and a ring. But when she stood at the altar facing the bishop during a solemn religious ceremony, there was no groom by her side.
She was getting married to Jesus Christ.
Ms Hayes, 41, is a consecrated virgin – a vocation taken by women within the Catholic Church who wish to give themselves as brides to God.
Even within Catholicism, consecrated virgins are little-known – partly because the vocation was only publicly sanctioned by the Church less than 50 years ago.
During the consecration ceremony, the candidate – who wears a bride-like, white dress- makes life-long chastity vows and promises never to engage in sexual or romantic relationships.
The women also wear a wedding ring – a symbol of their betrothal to Christ.
“I often get asked: ‘So, are you married?'” says Ms Hayes. “I usually just reply with a really brief explanation that I am similar to a religious sister, that there’s a total commitment to Christ, but that I live out in the world.”
She is one of 254 “brides of Christ” in the US, according to the United States Association of Consecrated Virgins (USACV) – whose day jobs range from nurses and psychologists to accountants, business women and fire fighters.
There are at least 4,000 consecrated virgins in the world, according to a 2015 survey, and the Vatican says there has been an upsurge of vocations “in very diverse geographic areas and cultural contexts”.
Unlike nuns, consecrated virgins do not live in enclosed communities or wear special clothes; they lead a secular life, have jobs and support themselves.
“I have been a teacher for 18 years, I’m actually teaching at the same high school that I went to,” says Ms Hayes, who lives in Fort Wayne, Indiana, US.
“[Before my consecration] I realised I didn’t share a call to [the] community life nuns live, in a religious congregation or with a specific apostolate [a form of evangelistic activity or work] that each of these communities would have.”
When she is not teaching, most of her time is devoted to private prayer and penance. She reports to a bishop and keeps regular meetings with her spiritual adviser.
“I live in a neighbourhood, I belong to the parish that’s just two miles away from my home, I am available to help family and friends. And then I teach, so I am surrounded by people during the day, but still accommodate a special consecration to the Lord around that.”
She has been in romantic relationships in the past but says they never made her feel complete.
“I thought I was called to married life, [which] is a very natural desire for the human person. So I did date… but never seriously.”
Among them was Agnes of Rome, who was reportedly killed as a result of her devotion to religious chastity.
The practice then declined in medieval times as the popularity of monastic religious life grew, only to be revived by the 1971 Ordo consecrationis virginum, the document through which the Vatican recognised female perpetual virginity as a voluntary state of life within the Church.
Ms Hayes says she had not thought of becoming a consecrated virgin until she met a spiritual adviser who, she says, “started asking the right questions”.
She made the decision in 2013, and her consecration took place two years later at the age of 36.
“Even though I have a lot of the same duties that I had before [the consecration], it’s still different because to relate to the Lord as spouse is entirely different to relating to him as friend.”
The choice of celibacy is a means of drawing even more closely to the following of the Lord. What I do is a gift of my body to Him”
Jessica Hayes, American consecrated virgin